Tuesday, December 1, 2015

25/52: harvest

thinking of the prisoner
who had reconciled himself to a life in Angola

we can reconcile ourselves to anything -
adapt to it
and make it ours.

he had no children.
no one to remember him.

he learned to paint -
he wanted to make art
and give it to people who would

take it away with them.
away from Angola.
to living rooms with big screen TVs
and ottomans.

Monday, September 28, 2015

24/52: for Barbara

I feel like a song
would be appropriate -
it's what the Greeks or Asyrians would do.

Don't each of our lives deserve a song?

It's something we've forgotten,
embarassed by having overcome
what portions of life did not kill us.

I don't mean a sappy doo-wop,
or a whiney country twang,
or the empty angst of rock,

but maybe something chanted to a drum -
to capture the fact that each of us
wakes up each day
intending to do the best she can do;
to be the best she can.
Until she cannot,

and the drum would go silent
and the words would trail off

Monday, September 21, 2015

23/52: waiting for my wings

The bones losing calcium
becoming fragile, hollow,
are just waiting for the wings to grow.

On the next stage of the journey
I can't be carrying all this extra luggage,
all that extra rock,
I'm leaving that behind
with a healthy serving of meat and fat.

I'll be just an outline
of the grounded being I was
when my wings grow in.

What will be left will be the pure me.
The essentials only -
I'll be unmistakable, 
all the confusing stuff gone,
the pure form when I leap toward heaven
and don't come back down
because my wings
have grown in.


Friday, September 18, 2015

22/52: #whathappensonEarthstaysonEarth

if a star booked a week's vacation on Earth
(7 days, six nights, spacefare not included)
and racked up the millions of light years
on her miles account

why would she take the form of a human?

weak, slow, half blind and stone deaf
by comparison
to the other package options.

the marketing department of
Celestial Leisure and Recreation, LLC
would be better to offer her
something beneath the ocean -
perhaps a blue whale -
to dive beneath the sea

something completely foreign to her experience -
to be embraced on all sides -
held and caressed by the water
as she ribboned through the private dark,
or gluttenously passed through clouds of plankton -
mouth wide, swallow and
rush.

she would crave something other
than the wide open expanse,
not to see her sisters would be such a treat -

she would have stories to post on
the stellar social media when she returned,
but they would be vague with innuendo
about someone dark and strong,
but mysteriously musical and filled with song,
concluding with that new old slogan,

#whathappensonEarthstaysonEarth



Audio: https://soundcloud.com/mbonica/whathappensonearthstaysonearth

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

21/52: The Time of Open Windows

when we opened the door in June
after months of the house standing, waiting
for us and our truck from San Antonio,

the still heaviness of last year's wood smoke
thickened the rooms
and seemed to swirl around our legs as we walked
through the sunshine on the floor and walls

we happily wandered through and opened every window
to let in the cool June breezes.

because June in New Hampshire is
The Time of Open Windows.

and in The Time of Open Windows
the windows stay open,
as you might imagine,

and the world's edges blur along the lines
of inside and outside.

Yankees know air conditioning is a sign of weakness;
a character flaw associated with dependency.
Of being too close to New York,
or worse, LA.
To not live in New England is a sign of weakness
to a Yankee.
we are glad to be home again.

in The Time of Open windows
we live a little inside and a little outside;
we breathe to the rhythms of the cicadas
and woodpeckers.

in the morning the coffee steams;
in the afternoon we sweat;
in the evening we lie still under the fans.

there is a greater possible range
when living in The Time of Open Windows,
so many things seem so possible,

until the leaves begin to fall
and The Long Winter sets in.

we dread a bit the time
when everything is closed,
and things are rushed
and huddled,
and the lines are sharpened:
this is inside,
the fire and life;
this is outside,
the cold and the darkness.

one must survive,
until The Time of Open Windows
comes again.


audio: https://soundcloud.com/mbonica/the-time-of-open-windows

Sunday, August 23, 2015

20/52: deep dusk

It is deep dusk
with just embers left in the sky

the humidity has already begun to settle
on the grass

born again as droplets
now on my feet.

The evening damp of a New Hampshire
August night

is something entirely different
than what we have left behind

in Texas.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

18/52: not tonight

how did the water get on to the counter by the sink?
set aside that I've been washing dishes for the last hour -
I didn't put it there.

It's a puddle
snaking around like some country dreamed up
by a colonial conquerer wearing a hat
with a big feather
straight in from the 16th century -
he hasn't even taken his muddy boots off
before trodding in to the kitchen.

It's a bent thing that is not supposed to be there -
an Easter Island head
that has grown up from under the formica,
a little froth on the side of its mouth.

I'm tired
and unwilling to give into this harassment.
I'm not giving up the towel
to this interloper. Not again.

Not tonight.